"...What do yo do when things are unbearable?" . . . Almost all of us said something to the effect that we just completely fell apart, and became totally habitual in our reactions. Needless to say, after we noticed what we did when we feel attacked, betrayed, or confused, when we found situations unbearable or unacceptable. We began to notice what we really did. Did we close down, or did we open up? Did we feel resentful and bitter, or did we soften up? Did we become more wiser or stupid? As a result of our pain, did we know more about being human, or did we know less? Were we more critical of our world or more generous? Were we penetrated by the arrows, or did we turn them into flowers?"
Day five. Presentations, an exam, final instruction to be integrated and a preview of next months learnings. I have learnt so much already. All those conceptual blocks--the stuckness, the self-imposed obstacles...the daily focus has allowed me to identify where and why I could not grasp the essential. This has been a wonderful experience--and it is just the beginning.
Will be glad to return home. To feel your embrace. To hear the boys rapping, running up and down the stairs. To return to a daily routine with my eyes open just a little bit wider.